Two Weeks

It's amazing what can happen in just two weeks......

I know I haven't written in awhile and for that I am truly sorry I mean to write more often than I do but I would like to fill you in on the journey I have been on with the Lord for the past two weeks!

It started out with me complaining, haha imagine that, I was at my end spiritually, mentally, and emotionally. I was tired of my job and my life wanting to give up and go home rather than stay on the hard path that God has set me on. But like he always does God intervened. Now I didn't advertise my desire to go home or the fact that almost every night I was on the phone crying to my mom that I couldn't take it so some of you may be shocked, or not. Anyway I happened to hang out with a colleague whom I rarely get to spend time, both of us were in a "mood" so to speak and we weren't up for much other than sitting there feeling sorry for ourselves, however despite our desire to do absolutely nothing we ended up with a group of 4 others on a hike in the dark! (As described in my post "Kisses From Heaven")

Anyway I left that evening feeling elated that the Lord would do that just for me, and with a renewed sense of dedication to the Lord. From that point on I was hungry for God, I made sure and did my devotions every night and prayed every time I was alone in my car. In the midst of this I finally sought out an accountability partner and even sat down to lunch with a woman I truly admire that I had been meaning to meet with all year.

All of this I know was God's desired outcome from that one evening! But that evening is not really what I'm blogging about. What I am blogging about rather is how much of a difference there has been in every aspect of my life since I have done my devotions daily and sought the Lord in prayer not just for myself and others, but truly sought him. I have always heard people say "the Lord has made such a difference in my life once I sought him" and I would try for a couple of days half-heartedly and then give up b/c "nothing was changing." I was so wrong in my approach and in my thinking during those times that of course it wouldn't work out I wasn't seeking the Lord I was following a system. Checking off a check list.

Now that I have been seeking the Lord and truly falling in love with him I have noticed the difference in myself and I am pleased! Things that I would struggle with and couldn't get over like "being more of a people person" have been coming easier now. I LOVE my job and my life once again, and am truly happy for the first time in a long while! I still can't believe it has taken me nearly 9 years since I was saved to figure this out (I would really like to smack myself upside the head) but no matter how long it has taken I'm glad I have figured it out.

My challenge to anyone who would find themselves doubting the power of reading you word every day and praying and seeking the Lord is that they would try it. For two weeks whole-heartedly seeking the Lord and his word and seeing the difference it will make in everything you do.